Nyinbuli

This is the sunrise over Nyinbuli, South Sudan.  I am extremely excited and looking forward to seeing this sight with my own eyes.  And I am also frightened of the day when I will be seeing this with my own eyes.

Where is God taking me?  What is He asking of me?  What am I doing?

God and I have this ongoing conversation about trust.  Well, my part is ongoing, His part is simply "Trust Me."  Then I whine a lot and suck at stuff and then we come back around to "Trust Me".  So, this is me trusting God.  I'm not terribly good at it.  I haven't had a lot of practice.

I feel like Peter stepping out of that boat onto the raging sea.  I think I see Jesus out there... but there is so much wind and waves and chaos.  I might get distracted.  I might sink.  I might drown.  Peter almost did.  That "almost" is really important though.  He did take his eyes off Jesus and he did begin to sink, but then he cried out for help and that was when Jesus grabbed him and held him and saved him from drowning.  Matthew 14:22-23  And next time Peter chose to step out in faith like that I bet he made it a few steps further.  I know for sure at the end of his life here on earth, he stepped out of that boat and walked right into the arms of the Savior.

Oh God, I will put my faith in You.  I will follow You wherever You lead.  I will call Your name and not be put to shame.  Thank You, Jesus, for loving me and being so very patient with me.  Help me to be a true reflection of You to the world around me.
Amen.  Psalm 22:5